When we returned from mother’s funeral, it was to find Daddy had arrived ahead of us. That wasn’t unusual. What hit so hard when we found him, was seeing every gun he owned surrounding his chair. “Dad, we have to put these up. The grandkids will be here any minute.” Steel laced my brother’s voice. … Continue reading Widow’s Suicide
Category: Surviving Loss
Widow’s Relaxation
It’s hard to believe. After living in the deep country which I am assured is relaxing and never being able to…after moving back to my beloved Florida seeking calm, I found it in a most unexpected place. Small Town, as I’ve mentioned before, was my home as a child. I literally ran almost a thousand miles… Continue reading Widow’s Relaxation
Widow’s Homecoming
Like Alice through the Looking Glass, I returned to Small Town, USA. Having been away, except for brief visits home to see Mom, Dad and my siblings, I previously paid little attention to the lack of growth in the town itself. Main Street still had stoplights consisting of one blinking and one full three-color. The… Continue reading Widow’s Homecoming
Widow’s Move
This post is a bit different than the others. If we and our children live long enough, THAT decision must be made. This literally came to me in a dream.” “Do you think I wanted to leave my home and move in with your ma and pa?” Granny scowled. “I was brought up… Continue reading Widow’s Move
Widow’s Children
Today is Father’s Day. We went to church, my daughter and I. As always, she sang out, bursting with joy, sat through the sermon, and waited impatiently for the special part of the service – the Father’s Day gift presentation. As the deacons gave out the pen/notepad combinations, a puzzled look came over Jaimie’s… Continue reading Widow’s Children
Widow’s Expectations
This far into widowhood, a year and a half, a widow’s expectations come alive once more. She believes that although life with the deceased is over, maybe, just maybe, all life is not. She looks around and sees happy couples her age and having another husband in the future doesn’t seem quite so impossible.… Continue reading Widow’s Expectations
Widow’s Struggle to Survive
Widows struggle to survive. The struggle may involve people or it may not. Mostly we search for a reason to keep going, especially after we’ve lost a partner of many years. When my husband died, the first question so many people asked was, “What will you do now?” I asked myself the same question. What… Continue reading Widow’s Struggle to Survive
Widow’s Restlessness
Two years after his death and I’m restless; restless in spirit, soul, mind and body. Too much time is spent in trying to find something to do and someone, anyone, with whom to enjoy life, to hold a sweet conversation. Perhaps depending on others is wrong. However, at some point every adult needs another with… Continue reading Widow’s Restlessness
Widow’s Birthday
Especially for those who had long marriages and lost their spouses late in life, birthdays become milestones we dread. They are seen as another year spent without a partner, a true confidante and without that special person to hold us for life’s good and bad moments. The mirror showing each new line and wrinkle makes… Continue reading Widow’s Birthday
Widow’s Diet Dilemma
I gained weight. No two ways about it, since my husband’s death, I put on the pounds. There are several reasons and none of them help reverse the process. Cooking for one is not the same as cooking for two. When Bru was alive, I strove to make good meals that covered the spectrum of… Continue reading Widow’s Diet Dilemma